Ask? Answer.

I wish I could get over paranoia about money.

What is your opinion on vigilantism?

I've got far worse than minor, but I'll try one on for size. I have insecurities related to aging. Sometimes I'll buy some beer or a pack of cigarettes just so I'll get carded. I end up giving them both away, since I don't drink beer or smoke. The time they actually confiscated my ID and called the police… it made my day.

What's something you want to do but just can't bring yourself to actually do?

Dog waste bags.

Got a minor confession to get off your chest?

Nope..

What is something you hate to spend your money on?

my plain black Athletic jogger leggings.

Are you following the election results?

We were on vacation and didn't do anything special related to Halloween.

What's your most worn item of clothing?

I suppose I was always kinda fascinated with Jim Jones, if that counts. Even wrote a whole album about him and Peoples Temple. Never really felt any sort of desire for any celebrity (Mr. Jones included), so that's probably as close as it gets. It's really more wanting to understand what they understood that they could compel others to do the things they had those people do.

What's your Halloween costume?

Yes! I absolutely love the holidays. Halloween is my favorite, and then I love seeing the winter holiday decorations start coming up. Who was your first big celebrity crush?

Not long term. I have a diversion safe for until I get it to the bank.

Do you like the holiday season?

Well, I once mistook a client for being ironic when she wasn't.. It turned out really bad and to be honest, she never got over it and I'm sure it was the reason our business patnership ended not long after..

Do you keep cash at home, and what safety precautions do you take?

Does Ireland count? I've been to Germany, but my whole time there was spent in a military hospital, so I'm not really counting that.

What's the most "wrong" thing you've laughed at?

It happens that I listen to techno during my workouts.

Have you ever been to Europe, and what's your favorite place? (I haven't but I hope I will some day.)

Somewhat. When I talk about having really dark dreams, dreams about death, and such, that's not an act. That actually happens. Wrong as this may sound, L and I started spending the night at each other's place fairly often once we started hanging out together, then she moved in when her sister moved out to be with her fiancé. When the Irish woman moved out, instead of taking her room, she just stayed here sharing my room. And I don't do it consciously, but in my sleep I get extremely cuddly and it doesn't bother her at all, and it's been really rare for me to have those dreams since and I sleep a lot better. Maybe it sounds… not good, but I really don't care. Doesn't really solve anything, just mitigates it. I feel like there's only one way it can be solved.

What's your, "I don't normally listen to this but just don't give a fuck right now" music?

Pay off my loan, set up a fund for my daughter and create a "fun activities" account.

Are you bothered with insomnia issues? (Or have you been and what solved it?)

I haven't told my partner about the money I've got when I sold of the property I owned (that houses the tanning salon).. He didn't know about it when I owned the place either.

Sometimes it bothers me, I would like to be able to discuss different investing options etc etc.

If you suddely won (or inhereted etc) a million, what would be the first thing you would do?

Wallet, lip plumping gloss, sunglasses, a small container of my foundation and a makeup sponge for touchups, oil blotting papers, a hair tie, a travel-size perfume, an old mint container that i use to carry loose meds in (tylenol, digestive enzymes, and l-theanine for anxiety/too much caffine), a travel deoderant, earbuds, a tiny bottle of sugar free coffee sweetener, foam earplugs, and usually a bunch of old reciepts all smushed up at the bottom of my bag lol.

what's a secret you've been keeping for someone else that you'd like to get off your chest?

Fancy food (maybe not uber fancy, like where they're serving foams and other "creations," but upscale). I love it when food is treated almost like an art form.

What's normally in your handbag (or pockets, if you don't use one)?

Achievements in my "Fitness journey".

The fact that I haven't established a family and got children (the latter is somewhat my assumption and goes especially for my Mom..).

Dining out, big plates with small portions of fancy food or well filled plates with "sports bar/casual" style food?

I am completely void of such desires. Sober, I'm not in the mood. If I do get horny, it takes nothing to drown that light. I can think of anything I've been on which made me change my disposition. Alcohol? My mind just goes to really dark places and everyone around me becomes really uncomfortable. Weed? Tried it twice, all it did was make me cough a lot and make my mouth really dry. Cocaine? Fighting appealed to me more than sex. Well, that's my norm, but it was more amplified. Mushrooms, the world was just too hilarious of a place for me to take anything seriously enough for sex to cross my mind. I think three or four times in a year is the most I've even masturbated, so expecting me to be DTF has never been a winning strategy. What about lust? Love? Too dead inside. I want to keep this one going, too, but I really can't answer that. I think that’s why it was so easy for me to keep stripping so compartmentalized and insulated from the rest of my life.

What about you would your parents be the most proud of and disappointed in?

I'll answer myself in an attempt to get this thing going again; Diet Coke/Pepsi Max with a slice of lemon.. If alcohol, I'll usually have red wine despite the fact that I often feel like having a beer. Beer tends to upset my stomach.

Sex, 100% sober or under influence of some kind?